By the end of the day Thursday, Bunk remained in his bed at Pomona Valley Medical Center, struggling to deal with the reality of being in an ICU another day, unable to return home. The decision to not discharge Bunk was not due to his health, which was slightly better today - no fevers, no increased secretions in his airways - but rather the issue of training for Mom and Dad on patient / ventilator care and safety. They were unable to obtain any further training with the ventilator company, and are worried now that securing a company to help with someone in Bunk’s condition might not be easy. Quite a lot preceded Thursday’s stalled move, but prior to launching into the update, we would like to ask everyone to please pray for improved health for Bunk, and, most importantly, for peace and calmness to pervade his being. These past few weeks have been an immense struggle for Bunk, and our prayers and visits help to sustain him when he falters. It was an anxious morning for Bunk with more turns and repositioning - and thus, more medications - than usual. He is relying more on his meds to help deaden the anguish and anxiety of being in the hospital bed - he told Mom again that he feels “as if I am in a cage, unable to move, do anything, or go anywhere.” The thought of being permanently confined to a bed (which is not the reality for Bunk) overwhelms and crushes him. In the midst of Bunk’s soporific state, our cousin Nate graciously arrived to be at Bunk’s side and support him the entire day. Nate was a godsend today, and his calming prensence with Bunk, whetherhe knew it or not, helpedBunk persevere and get through his day feeling better at night than he has in days. It also allowed Dad, Bev and Derek to workon getting the bed delivered, the transportation arranged, and many loose ends tied up, while allowing Mom to attend a meeting arranged by the administration at Casa Colina. After they contacted her, she made certain that Bunk approved of her attendance at the meeting prior to going - he said it was fine. Surprisingly, they offered to re-admit Bunk and fulfill their obligation of helping him and our parents get stabilized and situated on ventilator training (a major issue in getting Bunk home right now), and help Bunk recover from his devastating stay in the ICU, enabling him to return home as soon as possible. Naturally, the apprehension is thick regarding the decision to return to Casa Colina, but Bunk, Mom and Dad all agreed that it is the surest path to home. It has become obvious that there is no way for him to transition from the ICU to home; there remain far too many issues to be resolved and Bunk’s incredibly limited tolerance of confinement in the ICU could not bear the burden of the extra days or weeks these issues require. In the end, it was agreed that Bunk will return to Casa Colina Friday, hopefully by noon. I will write an update during the day Friday to let everyone know his whereabouts, and confirm his safe transfer. We hope that the mere thought of getting up into his chair, going outside, getting a shower, and beginning his slow road to recovery once again will displace the desperation and instead bring hope, with the anticipation of sure health and strength. Throughout the day, Bunk repeatedly requested quiet, and asked to be kept on an interchanging but steady stream of morphine, Atavan and Valium. As expected, the use of the drugs helps Bunk cope with his current situation, but they are building up in his system and the time is ripe for his weaning from these as well - with any luck, upon his return to Casa Colina this will happen. It was a tough, emotional day for Bunk; Nate gently but consistently reassuredhim that he is stronger than any of us, and that we are here for him always. Indeed, it is true: Bunk’s uncommon courage and strength are manifest in the fact that he is still with us today. We are grateful for this, and we pray for divine mercy and immediate healing of Bunk’s broken - but recovering - body and spirit. Please pray intently for the specific issues of his breathing to improve, the pneumonia to subside, the breaking down of his skin (pressure sores) to stop cold so it can heal, for peace and strength of body, mind and spirit, and for an actual and safe transfer to occur. Also pray that the ventilator issues will be resolved in Bunk’s favor and that Mom and Dad will continue to manage the responsibility and pressure with their immense grace and faith - so apparent in their devotion to their son. Once Bunk has returned to the familiarity of Casa Colina, we would like to encourage any and all of you to visit as soon as possible. There is no denying your positive and encouraging influence on Bunk; his indomitable will and goodness is reflected in each friend and family member. He derives such great fortitude, courage and hope from your presence that it is impossible to quantify. By the end of the day, the meds began to wear off a bit and Bunk was actually feeling better, even asking to watch TV with Dad again. He, Mom and Dad had a great conversation about everything - his fears, their plans, goals, and what tomorrow might bring. Bunk even engaged Dad in his new plans for transportation once he returns home - he wants things to be as normal as possible, and was even requesting a large truck - hewants tobe helped into the truck and his wheelchair can go in the back - he’s thinking of any way to not use a handicap van! Whatever he’s thinking, the very excellent and optimistic news here is that Bunk sees a future, and is making plans for it - with himself in it. Dad reminded him that if he wanted to give the crazy truck idea a go, it wouldn’t be possible with a ventilator in tow; they agreed that losing the vent was a priority the very minute he is able to resume weaning. In large part, this whole process will be helped by the director of Respiratory Therapy at Casa Colina, Leonard - a person Bunk has come to trust and looks to for advice and encouragement. Thank you all very much for keeping Bunk in your prayers and hearts always. I will write another update as soon as we know anything about the transfer and possible visiting opportunities.